please watch over me  / Jamie (sister)
im starting to get really scared it seems like so many things keep going wrong with this pregnancy just please watch over me and your nephew if anything happend to him i couldnt handle it i wish you were here to see him when hes born it makes me so sad that he wont get to know you ill tell him about you though i love you mike and miss you so much Close

For a lifetime  / Tara Perea

How is it that a charming young man like yourself has been taken and has been gone for far too long?  I just still don't understand it..I miss you more and more with each passing day and it definitely doesn't get easier.  Your death has greatly impacted my life more then you would probably imagined when you were here with us.

 

This site takes me back to that day that seems like only yesterday..Over 2 years ago I found out and I don't care what anyone says about me or whether I should mourn you or I shouldn't who can choose that?  I know that we had rough times but we had some really great times too..especially the past couple of months before you passed.  It is unfortunate that we have sometimes surrounded ourself with people who are so caught up in themselves that they fail to realize the truth.  Ya know 2 years I guess techinically is a pretty long time..although it doesn't seem that way at all, and the funny thing is that so much has changed since that horrific day that still haunts me!  Ya know Mike I don't know if I could have changed anything but I regret not going to the airport with you to pick up Scott, everyday I think about you asking me to go and I think why didn't I go? Sure going to an airport isn't the most fun thing to do but at least I would have spent time with you that night..more time then talking for 10 minutes and you having to leave..Maybe this all means something, although I have yet to figure it out just as I have yet to understand why you?  Why then? 

 

There is so much for me to live for but my heart still aches that you aren't hanging out at dunkin donuts and it aches that I cannot send you a text and see how everythign is going for you..Its undescribable really!

And although maybe I should have wanted to change everything that we went through to know that your life would end so abruptly and short, but I wouldn't trade the fights, I wouldn't trade the decisions that we made, the partying that we did, none of it , because when times were tough they were tough but when we worked through everything it was the best that it could be and you were always someone that I could tell everything and anything too..And even though you weren't honest about our friendship with anyone, I don't even care cause I know what we did and I know how we acted and I know that we were friends and I understand why you kept things the way that you kept them.

 

Just know that each and everyday there is something/anything that reminds me of you!  Everyday I pray that you are eternally happy and that you are in the best place ever! And even though I can get selfish at times and think ..why the hell is he gone and I can't text him..I try to think about how I can talk to you anyways, I can send you balloons, and I know you get them and I know you watch over every single person that was ever in your life and thats one thing that does bring a smile to my face to know that you are now happy and have nothing to worry about.

I love you and I miss you!

 

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Still Missing you...  / Jennifer Hammond (Aunt)
Hey Mike, its been a while since I have been on here. Busy with life as you know but you are still always on my mind. 2 minutes on this site and I am in tears again... I still cannot accept you being gone. In my everyday its not real, just busy and it feels like you are off somewhere busy too but coming here makes it real again. I guess thats why I dont come to often, the pain is as raw as it was 2yrs ago. You were such a beautiful angel, why you had to be taken from us is something I will never understand. So full of life with so much left to do, it is truely unfair.

You have missed so much already although I do believe you are watching over us all its not the same as you being here. Losing you has been the greatest heartache I have ever known and there is no fixing it. Wish I could see you one last time to say goodbye and give you hugs and kisses - we were never given the chance to do that which makes this that much harder.

I love you so much Mike!!! Miss you more everyday and just wish you were here.

All my love to you my angel!!

Aunt Jenny
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Haven't wrote in awhile  / Nikki (Sister)

Hey I haven't really been on here lately so I haven't been able to write. I still think about you everyday and miss you more as the time goes by. There's so much changing in my life right now that I wish you were here for and it's hard for me to imagine where you might've been in your life by now. Gabby is getting so big she just turned 3 and she had a huge party that I really wish you could've been there for. I tell her about you every chance I get and for some reason when we visited stacey she kept calling Steven Michael lol. Soon I'm going to have to deal with all this court stuff about Gabby and it'd be nice to have you here by me, you always helped me out when I needed it. And lately I've been hanging out with Andy (I know another one of your friends lol) but he's a really good guy and he's been a big part of me changing for the better and being happier than I have been. It's nice when I can talk to him about you and he gets it. I've been thinking a lot about the day you left and it's still just as hard to go back there but I think sometimes I need to remember the pain along with remembering the good times too. Feeling the heart throbbing pain of losing my only brother is the worst feeling in the world. But it keeps me moving to think I can still make you proud by trying to make my life better and keeping your niece happy and safe. I know I'm rambling but it's what I do... I really miss you and it's too hard for me to open up to anyone else and talk to them so coming here lets me get out what I need to atleast in writing. I'm still waiting for the day you walk into grandma's complaining and I don't think there will ever be a day that I don't wish for that. I think I'm going to stop by the cementary today I havent been there in a while either though thats one of the hardest places for me to go. I can't seem to bring myself to believe that's where you are... I love you Mike and I miss you like crazy everyday. Just know that I'll never forget you... <3

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Missing you still....  / Aunt Stacey

Well. It has been over 2 years and coming to this site really brings it all back. I actually got that sick feeling in my stomache when I started reading this page, and looking at your photos and all the memories. I can say that time doesn't heal the pain but it can dull it, although I have photos of you all over the house it doesn't hit as hard when I'm going about my everyday life, but when I sit down and look at this page it really hits me that wow, he's really not here anymore, and I can't talk to him again...I know it sounds crazy because it's been a while, but sometimes I feel like your still there and I just haven't heard from you for whatever reason. Looking at this I know that that's just not the case. I try and block out thought's of you so it doesn't make me crazy, I just can't stop wondering why. Why such a loving good kid like you? If it's true that we all have a job to do and then our time is up, I really want to know what your job was because I don't care what anyone says, you had so much more to do in this life.

Mike, you were such a loving guy and you grew to be such an amazing man, and your family...God we all meant the world to you, you would have done anything for any single one of us...I hope wherever you are that you know the feeling was mutual, I love you and miss you so much!!! I wish I could've done something, anything to have prevented what happened. You were my nephew and my friend and I have such an empty space in my heart that I will never get back, it will be complete when we meet again! God's power is like no other and I know he had bigger plans for you, it's just so hard to accept that. You were an angel here on earth and I guess he needed you to be an angel up above.

I know you are still around and I know you are watching over us...Steven really misses you too Mike. He is just too little to truely understand what happened. Who am I kidding, I don't fully understand this. It wasn't supposed to be this way, your sill supposed to be here!! It's truely not fair...I guess whatever doesn't kill us makes us stronger and you have made me stronger! Life is one lesson after the next and I have seen how short life can really be and how to cherish the ones you love because you never know when they won't be here anymore.

I just wish I had one more day...Just one more day to tell you all the things I want to say and just hang out one last time!!! For now I need to be here, until my mission is complete, then we'll have eternity. I hope your in a beautiful place with loving people and family who passed before you all around!! If heaven is as great as the bible and history make it out to be I am sure you are ok, and having a blast!!!

I want you to know that although I may not visit this site all the time it's only because it hurts too much, but please know that not ONE SINGLE day goes by that I don't think of you!

You are only a though or a prayer away, I miss you little nephew (turned angel). You are deeply missed and eternally loved.

If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane 
I would walk right up to Heaven
And bring you back again

No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before I knew it
And only God knows why 

My heart still aches in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No on will ever know

But know I know you want me
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store

Since you’ll never be forgotten 
I pledge to you today
A hallowed place within my heart
Is where you’ll always stay

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two years it never gets easier  / Jamie (sister)

two years today and it feels like forever it still hurts so much i miss you more than anything everything reminds me of you i cant even be with mom or the family today so its even worse i just want you back i love you mike so so much

 

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2 Years passed and still lost  / Gay Mikey (Friend/Roommate)
Hey Mike
I still can't believe tomorrow is gonna be 2 years that we all lost you.  It's still so hard to believe it.  So many things have happened in the past 2 years.  I hope you received the balloon I let go for you on September 24th...Instead of doing a balloon and having everyone do screwdriver shots at the bar, tomorrow at 12 o'clock noon I will be having a moment of silence in your honor.  I hope to have all of those who read this to join me, no matter where everyone is.  To all Mike's family and friends, please join me at 12 noon in a moment of silence.  It will last for one full minute. 
I miss you Mike.  For the time we all had you in our lives you really left an impact on all of us.  You really touched each and everyone of us in your own subtle way.  From the good things to the dumb things you did, so many memories go through our minds.  I know you run through our minds everyday.  You really were and always will be a great person.  Keep watching over us all, especially your family...I know I hadn't know your family for a long time but they are great people and you're very lucky to have them so keep protecting them. RIP MIKE Close

Mike, Please watch over Aunt Josie, Megan, and JJ  / Gay Mikey (friend/roommate)
Hey Mike,

Please watch over my Aunt Josie, my friend Megan Buske, and my friend J.J DeRaffele...Today I got a text message from Jackie telling me that 2 people that were part of my life were killed in 2 seperate car accidents this week...Then a little while later, I called my mom because I needed someone to talk to and she told me that my Aunt Josie had passed away last night. I feel so jinxed right now. Two years ago, I lost 2 of my closest friends, You and Steven Cunningham...Now, I lose 3 people. Why does everything always happen to me in groups. I just don't get it. First, I lost Steven, then lost you. Now, I break up with Jake, lost Megan, J.J. and my Aunt Josie. Please watch over them as they are new to Heaven.
Am I being punished? All I want to do is be happy for once. Is that too much to ask for. Everytime I make a wish, it's always to make everyone else lives easier or happier...When is it gonna be my turn for happiness???
Moving to Florida was the best choice I ever made. But I work so much, I don't have any time for happiness. I just don't get it. I'm proud of myself for what I'm accomplishing down here but like I said, i don't have enough time to smile anymore. I was always known as the one that had a permanent smile. Lately, it's disappearred. Watch over them, watch over your family and friends...Try to throw some happiness my way while you're at it...I miss you so much Mike...I still think of you everyday. Everytime I get in my car, i think of you. I want to get a new car but don't want to get rid of my car b/c it brings back so many memories. RIP Michael... Close

i feel so lost  / Jamie (sister)

i miss you so much im so lost. i always felt protected when you were here and now i feel like i have nothing. im scared to go on without you i dont think im strong enough to do it. i just want you back so bad why did god have to take you. you taught me everything i know you must have hated me i followed you around ever since i was little lol. i dont know mike it hasnt gotten any easier i want to feel protected again i want my big brother back:( love you always and forever.

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Missing you....  / Grandma

Hello My Angel... Well Memorial Day has come and gone and we are having a heat wave.. Miss you each and everyday. School will end in a few days and then we can look forward to summer. With each summer activity we share as a family you will be missed. Look down and share some of our crazy days. Swimming and BBQ's and Beach Boys, it just never changes. R.I.P.

              Your Loving Grndmother

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